jul
Hoy aunque todo siga igual
Y me mandes a callar diciéndome
Que tienes que dominar
O será el final
Y yo no puedo así
No tengo armas para enfrentarte
Pongo mis manos, manos al aire
jul
That Particular Time
My foundation was rocked. My tried and true way to deal was to vanish. My departures were old. I stood in the room shaking in my boots. At that particular time love had challenged me to stay. At that particular moment I knew not run away again. That particular month I was ready to investigate with you. At that particular time. We thought a break would be good for four months we sat and vacillated. We thought a small time apart would clear up the doubts that were abounding. At that particular time love encouraged me to wait. At that particular moment it helped me to be patient. That particular month we needed time to marinate in what "us" meant. At that particular time. I've always wanted for you what you've wanted for yourself. And yet I wanted to save us high water or hell. And I kept on ignoring the ambivalence you felt. And in the meantime I lost myself. In the meantime I lost myself. I'm sorry I lost myself... I am. You knew you needed more time. Time spent alone with no distraction. You felt you needed to fly solo and high to define what you wanted. At that particular love encouraged me to leave. At that particular moment I knew staying with you meant deserting me. That particular month was harder than you'd believe but I still left at that particular time.
fev
dez
nov
Férias
O B! vai de férias. Vou descansar que bem mereço. Volto dia 9. Aviõezinhos e cidades fora daqui. Lá diz a outra: I declare a full time out from all things commitment.
nov
Lost
Just because I'm losing
Doesn't mean I'm lost
Doesn't mean I'll stop
Doesn't mean I'm in a cross
Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserve
No better and no worse
I just got lost
Every river that I've tried to cross
And every door I ever tried was locked
And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off...
You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
'Cause along may come
A bigger one
And you'll be lost
Every river that you try to cross
Every gun you ever held went off
And I'm just waiting till the firing stops
And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off
nov
The moment I let go of it, was the moment I got more than I could handle. The moment I jumped off of it, was the moment I touched down...
... how about no longer being a masochistic
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- Wouldn't it be a shame if I knew how great I was five minutes before I died? I'd be filled with such regret before I took my last breath.
- You're willing to tell me this now, and you're not going to die anytime soon.
set
Joining you
you and I we're like 4 year olds we want to know why and how come about everything. we want to reveal ourselves at will and speak our minds and never talk small and be intuitive and question mightily and find god. my tortured beacon we need to find like-minded companions.
jul
jun
I am the biggest hypocrite. I've been undeniably jealous. I have been loud and pretentious. I have been utterly threatened. I've gotten candy for my self-interest. The sexy treadmill capitalist. Heaven forbid I be criticized. Heaven forbid I be ignored.
mai
mai
These are not times for the weak of heart
jan
The Nicest Thing
All I know is that you're so nice, you're the nicest thing I've seen. I wish that we could give it a go, see if we could be something. I wish I was your favourite girl. I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world. I wish my smile was your favourite smile. I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style.I wish you couldn't figure me out, but you always wanna know what I was about. I wish you'd hold my hand when I was upset. I wish you'd never forget the look on my face when we first met. I wish you had a favourite beauty spot that you loved secretly, 'cos it was on a hidden bit that nobody else could see. Basically, I wish that you loved me. I wish that you needed me. I wish that you knew when I said two sugars, actually I meant three. I wish that without me your heart would break. I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake. I wish that without me you couldn't eat. I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep. Look, all I know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen. And I wish that we could see if we could be something. Yeah I wish that we could see if we could be something.
jan
Wait for you
I know you're trying to get around me baby. I know you've got me in your heart baby. I know that you could love me if you only had a guarantee. When I look at your face it's so empty. I know I could fill you with love baby. Your soul is dying for me. Can't deny our energy. And you're far I'm near you're there I'm here you're hurting for me I can see it in your eyes. Some of the hardest things are easy to achieve with patience. I'll wait for you until the heavens fall. I'll wait for you until the end of the world. I'll wait for you until I no longer breathe. I know that it's not impossible. I'll wait for you until you finish your fight. I'll wait for you until the timing is right. I'll wait for you until you knock on my door. Cuz right now it's feeling just like a movie yeah yeah... Just like a movie. I know that this is hard for you. Want you to know that I'm feeling it too. It's taken some time but now I see everything. It's so clear to me. I can't give up your love without dying baby. I'll wait until the sea is dry baby. How do we know what love is until it is free. You don't gotta do anything that you can't do. You don't gotta do anything in a hurry. You don't gotta do anything that you can't do. I know you're there you got me. You don't gotta do anything that you can't do. You don't gotta do anything in a hurry. You don't gotta do anything so don't worry. I trust you and I know you're there. I know you're there.
dez
Pedacinho de letra...
... para a vida em geral: "That you give me no reason why you making me work so hard"
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set
A change would do you good
If you never try, you'll never know. You gotta be bold. No second thoughs, no not this time. Yes, I'm ready to jump. I can make my first steps as a child of 25. I never really gave up on breaking out of this two-stars town. Wanna get on that plane and fly away. To hell with everybody else. Adeus, não afastes os teus olhos dos meus.
jun
(you should open your eyes. make it easy to accept things)
abr
To Give. To Get.
Às vezes vem-me uma fúria assim do fundo do ser. Diz-se por aí que recebemos o que damos. Não me parece que seja bem assim. I have as much rage as you have. I have as much pain as you do. I've lived as much hell as you have. And i've kept mine bubbling under for you.
abr
Chuva

Cantam os Ornatos Violeta: "Embora lave o medo que há do fim a chuva apaga o fogo que há em mim. Ouço a voz de quem me quer tão bem. E fico a ver se a chuva a ouvirá também..."
mar
Momentos
No outro dia parei num sinal vermelho ali na Praça do Comércio e estavam umas pessoas a tirar fotografias junto da estátua no meio da praça. Lembrei-me de quando era mais pequeno e íamos passear em família e tiravamos fotografias junto dos monumentos numa de mais tarde recordar. Há muito tempo que ninguém me tira uma fotografia. Tive saudades daqueles momentos de simplicidade em que a vida era decidida por alguém e era levado pela mão livre de preocupações e responsabilidades e decisões para tomar. Uma buzinadela do carro de trás trouxe-me de volta à realidade do sinal verde. Pedido de desculpa com a mão, primeira engrenagem e no rádio ouvem-se os primeiros acordes da 'Try' da Nelly Furtado e eu cantarolo com ela: "All I know is everything is not as it's sold. But the more I grow, the less I know..."
mar
(let's rearrange. I wish you were a stranger I could disengage)
fev
fev
fev
Estou além
Não consigo dominar este estado de ansiedade. A pressa de chegar p'ra não chegar tarde. Nao sei de que é que eu fujo. Será desta solidão? Mas porque é que eu recuso quem quer dar-me a mão? Vou continuar a procurar a quem eu me quero dar. Porque até aqui eu só quero quem quem eu nunca vi. Porque eu só quero quem... Quem nao conheci. Esta insatisfação Não consigo compreender. Sempre esta sensação que estou a perder. Tenho pressa de sair. Quero sentir ao chegar vontade de partir p'ra outro lugar. Vou continuar a procurar a minha forma, o meu lugar. Porque até aqui eu só estou bem aonde eu não estou porque eu só quero ir... Aonde eu não vou.
jan
dez
Well the dogs were barking at a new moon. Whistling a new tune. Hoping it would come soon... And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day til the feeling went away. And the sky was falling. And the clouds were dropping. And the rain forgot how to bring salvation. The dogs were barking at the new moon. Whistling a new tune. Hoping it would come soon. So that they could die.
nov
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Exercício
That YOU would be loved even when YOU numb yourself
That YOU would be good even when YOU are overwhelmed
That YOU would be loved even when YOU were fuming
That YOU would be good even if YOU were clingy
That YOU would be good even if YOU lost sanity
That YOU would be good whether with or without him.
Repetir 10x por dia. Um abraço. :-)
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(Blame it all upon a rush of blood to the head...)
set
set
set
Cry
And then she said,
- "What's that on your eyes?"
She touched me. Yes, I was crying.
- "For many years I've tried, but now I'm too tired to hide.
No reason why. Just need to cry."
And then she said,
- "I'm sorry I asked."
She kissed me and took this pain off my chest. Each tear that fell down vanished in the ground.
- "No need to dry. Just need to cry."
(Silence 4)
ago
Sing along!
You see these shackles baby I'm your slave. I'll let you whip me if I misbehave.
ago
jul
jul
jun
jun
jun
Where has all the love gone?
mai
mai
The Finish Line
The earth is warm next to my ear. Insects noise is all that I hear. A magic trick makes the world disappear. The skies are dark, they're dark but they're clear. A distant motorcade and suddenly there's joy. The snow and tickertape blurs all my senses numb. It's like the finish line where everything just ends. The crack of radios seems close enough to touch. Cold water, cleaning my wounds. A sad parade, with a single balloon. I'm done with this, I'm counting to ten. Blue as seas, running to them. I feel like I am watching everything from space. And in a minute I'll hear my name and I'll wake. I think the finish line's a good place we could start. Take a deep breath, take in all that you could want.
mai
mai
abr
We hurt each other...
...then we do it again.
abr
Às vezes, durante a viagem para casa, pelas estradas desenhadas com tinta branca e buracos, é difícil não deixar os pensamentos intrusivos (um conceito que aprendi há pouco tempo) tomarem conta da cabeça. E é sempre nessas alturas que dá uma música no rádio que parece encaixar-se em tudo o que estamos a pensar. E então, eu canto o que estou a pensar, por vezes com sotaque brasileiro: Em paz, eu digo que eu sou o antigo do que vai adiante. Sem mais, eu fico onde estou, prefiro continuar distante.
abr
You lost me...
... in the the rear view.
abr
My heavy heart...
... is made of stone.
abr
mar
mar
mar
mar
Hoje...
... acordei com uma música da Dido na cabeça. On a different day, if I was safe in my own skin, then I wouldn't feel lost and so frightened
fev
jan
(corrigido)
Is there anybody out there who is lost and hurt and lonely too. Are they bleeding all your colours into one. And if you come undone as if you'd been run through. Some catapult that fired you. You wonder if your chance will ever come. Or if you're stuck in square one.
jan
dez
nov
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nov
nov
(nothing equals nothing)
nov
(And you're crazy when you think that I will let you in)
nov
(Fade in) Turu turu. turu turu turu. turu turu. Puntz puntz puntz não consigo dormir again. Puntz puntz. Time goes by so slowly. Puntz puntz puntz puntz não prego olho again. Puntz puntz. I don't know what to do. Turu turu. turu turu turu. turu turu. Puntz puntz puntz. So slowly so slowly so slowly so slowly so slowly. Turu turu. turu turu turu. turu turu. Puntz puntz puntz. (Fade out)
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(Cause I don’t really want some good advice)

